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feeling dissapointed in myself this week as after my 3lb loss last week this week is a maintain…i did say earlier in the week a maintain i would be happy with but i still kinda held out hope!! diet wise i done good but its the exercise i had trouble with this week as had a hectic social schedule and busy at work so its ended up sliding and i have only done 2 this week compared to my usual 4,5,6! i got tomorrow though so i shall do something after wk tomorrow even if it just a walk or a workout dvd something to get the heart pumping! monday is a fresh week so i shall just pick the classes back as usual. i think my main dissapointment is that i feel like i failed the wildcats as its my first full week and i havent lost…its the first week since august that i havent lost 1lb, then on the other hand i think what did i expect when i wasnt doing so much!!

on a positive side i am a size down in tops and jeans went shopping the other day and i knew i needed jeans as i really do need a belt with my old ones and they’ve gone loose around the knees thighs and stomach, so it proves all this hardwork does pay off and i just need to keep on going with it. hope everybody is doing great, keep it up! xxx

must do better! dont know what i am playing at this week who knows, on my night shifts that finished sunday morning i did fantastic and ate good and was exercising plenty too. then from sunday i took a turn for the worse, it was my sleep day as i finished my nights sunday am but i went for dinner and a movie with my mom, i had a diet pepsi during the movie then after we both had steak with all the trimmings ie.. mushrooms peas tomato onion rings and chips, as if that wasnt enough i then had a brownie sundae which was a small brownie with vanilla icecream and caramel sauce..my bad! monday came and i did really well and ate good meals and i went to body condition and worked my butt off! but then i started snacking on crisps and chocolate not good at all, why do i do that to myself?? it is mindless eating and then after i just feel bad, there is no common sense behind what i do i just dont think! today started of great i had breakfast and a healthy dinner planned for after work, today at work there was a cake stall to raise money for the ward and a new hoist for patients, i had more cake than i care to mention and then came home had my healthy dinner finished off with chocolate…i despair. where has my will power gone? at this rate i will be lucky to maintain my 189 next week but i have had a wake up call at last to break me out of this crappy cycle whoo! stu was going through his files on his comp and found a pic of me in my underwear 3 years ago i looked HOT! if i do say so myself cant believe i looked like that so i have my new sense of determination back and i have 48lbs to lose until my main goal so i have wrote 48 reasons to lose weight in my food diary which i hope has also made me think of why i am on this journey. i deserve to be happy with myself and am going to get to my goal …a blip of 3days does not put back on the 26lbs back on that i have lost to date so tomorrow i am xmas shopping and i will be walking all day then i am booked in for step and aerobics at 19.30pm, i shall have a healthy breakfast before i leave home and a healthy lunch (jacket potato) and cook healthy dinner (chicken) so tomorrow is fully back on track and i am starting tonight by drinking my water intake, on a plus i have been having my water and vitamins and keeping active so fingers crossed i can do damage limitation and at least maintain..i will be very happy with that!!

evening all just checking in, these blogs are almost like my own journal, well i guess thats what they are a journal of my weightloss and my journey so far. on my last night shift tonight, its been hectic! my patients have just settled and its 4am! hometime in 3.5 hrs and then to bed.

yesterday morning i went spinning after my shift, oh my! i felt shattered after and a bit out of it during due to tiredness and pushing myself but i had a great workout and slept like a baby after! i spoke to two ladies that go saturday mornings and they stay for a double class, they may have persuaded me to try it they said they really feel good after and feel the benefits. perhaps i will try a double class next week and see how i get on it can be a new challenge for me!

after sleeping today before work i weighed in as i generally weigh in on a sat morning and guess what 3lbs lighter! i knew i’d worked hard and eaten good but i was going to be happy for a maintain after my splurge last weekend and i did not expect to have done so well so i am ecstatic!! i am aiming for 7lbs off from now till xmas so hopefully i’ll get there… another high point of my week is joining wildcats! i am so excited to be part of their team and am determined and dedicated to doing my best for them and in turn myself..go wildcats!

later today after i’ve slept i am going to try and go swimming before meeting my mum, we’re gonna go to the cinema and then for dinner, i am gonna try and order wisely and i have saved points from today so that i can try to stay within my allowance, different things work for different people but ww really does work for me and i dont feel restricted at all and like everyone i do have the odd day off! heres to next week and just as much success!!

well here i am again and for the next 3 nights hopefully i will have 3 peaceful nights instore for me!.. i went swimming today before work tonight and got my kit in the boot of the car to go again in the  morning before i go to bed, its amazing how refreshing it is after a night shift. spinning is booked for sat morning, not sure how i’ll cope with that after my shift, it’ll be interesting anyway lol .  i’m trying to fit my exercise around work at the minute as i seem to be having very unco-ordinated shifts , yesterday i did a late shift and now i’m on nights what the f***!…roll on my days off!! just recieved my xmas off duty today, and i have xmas eve, day and boxing day off which i am over the moon about as i travel to worcester every year and its a 3-4hr drive. due to my job been a 24/7 service i am not guaranteed the time off. this year is extra special as its my nephews 1st christmas! i’m so glad as otherwise i’d be home alone as there would be no point  in stu staying home with me for me to work all day..i can’t wait for the holidays now! heres to aiming for that next 7lbs off for xmas (i better get my arse into gear!!) still keeping up with my goals for this week, good water intake, daily vitamins, by the time sat comes and weigh day i will have done 5 classes/exercise sessions (my goal was to do 4-5.. i did swimming mon, aerobics tues,swimming thurs,  and am going swimming fri and spinning sat morning) and my diet is not too bad (though not fantastic either!)…just plodding on! speak soon x

Evening guys! I have now worked out the technicalities of blogging from my mobile if this works and you can see this blog!lol as of today our comp died perhaps a virus?who knows?but it won’t open anything and when you click on something it just shuts down and then re loads so from now until we get a new comp I guess I shall be touching base this way…what a pain in the arse! Anyway on to the topic of diet and exercise (the reason I blog..though sometimes a vent is good too!lol) food wise could do better great breakfast and lunch and dinner was not so much unhealthy just too much I need to work on my portion control this week too..my goals are goin good though, vitamins and lots of water daily spinning is the order of the day plus healthy food tomorrow I am determined to maintain if not lose 1lb this week.. I am hoping for the 1lb but not totally unrealistic as I did have a bad weekend..my plan is to keep up the exercise and keep the food healthy so wish me luck! And hopefully my preserverance and determination will pay off! Hope everyone has a good day and that the lbs are melting away!! xx

oh my what an unhealthy weekend that is from saturday lunchtime until monday bedtime!!! and now as i come round from my weekend i have that feeling of guilt, but also i guess renewed determination!! i have been unable to log on since saturday as we have hardly been at home and although i read blogs on the net on my phone i am unable to comment, i generally check in every few days on the site to offer support and see how everyone is doing and i start missing the site and feeling as though i am not been as supportive as i could be so here i am… hope you are all doing fantastic, i wish i could say i had a healthy weekend but unfortunately i cant lol

i have just had a weekend where healthy alternatives have been available and instead of choosing good like i usually do i had whatever i felt like! oh my will power was in the gutter this weekend i admit it and i dont even know why, i wish i had and then hopefully i could have put into place some damage control!!

saturday was weigh in day 2lbs off yey (currently maintaining I AM A LUCKY GIRL after this weekend to maintain!!) so due to my loss me and stu went shopping for dinner that night we had garlic bread and chicken dippers for lunch and then pizza for tea which wasnt takeaway so hopefully not too bad but snack wise i had chocolate too so that was my relaxed day and i had been spinning that morning sweating bucketloads so didnt feel too bad! i was then sure i would be back on track on sunday…HOW MISTAKEN WAS I ?!?!!

Sunday was our friends birthday and the big chelsea v man utd football game so we all arranged to meet at lunchtime in the pub, i started well as i had driven so was on diet coke, after an hr stu and my friends convinced me to go drop the car at home and walk back in so i could have a drink. (i used to drink 1-2 times a week but since starting my journey i have cut down on my alcohol intake to be healthier, so i shoulda known my tolerance has gone down!!) so i came back and we had lunch i had a chicken and bacon bbq cheese melt baguette with chips and i had started drinking rose wine ( all the lads had pints of lager and all day breakfasts), we stayed out 12hrs from 12.00 till 00.00 partying and socialising its been a long time since we all had a good do and everyone was out so spirits were high. to round the night off it was a shared pizza and chips between me and stu from the takeaway at least we shared at one point i’d of had pizza on my own! my stomach used to be the bottomless pit lol

then it brings us to monday!

we slept in and had snacks through the day, i went swimming as i couldnt do my body con
as the in laws were coming for dinner and the times would clash so i did 20 laps and felt ok that i was doing something not been too lazy and missing exercise altogether. dinner was peppered steak + peppercorn sauce, onion rings, crispy potatoes and veg, not the healthiest meal i could have done!! then rounded off with low fat raspberry cheesecake (to try and make amends lol) and all of the above is my truly naughty weekend i have now started afresh today and am ensuring i get my water intake for the day, i have also started taking vitamins, and i am at aerobics tonight, and am gonna book for spinning thurs, fri and sat. this week after the weekend i will be over the moon with a maintain! i just wish i knew why i caved and lost my will power, hopefully now back on track i can keep it going..

hope everyone is going strong and keep it up xxx

my body this week is another 2lbs lighter so i am keeping my trend of 2lbs a week lol this week i have done 2 aerobics classes and 3 spinning and the same is planned for next week. i am really happy with 2 a week and would love for me to lose at that rate throughout my journey though that is prob wishful thinking i am sure i will plateau at some point but i know that is food i need to cut down on as my exercise is working well for me but what can i say i enjoy food far too much!

tonight i am having pizza, my first in about 8weeks now its freshly made and not takeaway so hopefully a little saving grace! i am going to concentrate on eating till i feel satisfied and not eating for the sake of it i shall put 2 slices on my plate and hopefully that will do me! today has been quite relaxed today, healthy breakfast but then garlic bread and chicken goujons for lunch and a chocolate bar, just the pizza later and thats my day not great but i did an hr of spinning this morning so that makes me feel ok about it i am working on not feeling guilty for eating certain foods just enjoying in moderation and keeping healthy during the week so far its working just plodding on as usual!

my hols from work are over weds and i back to the daily grind so going to make the most of spending quality time with stu over the weekend as he is off too. tomorrow i will try to go swimming but our pool closed this week as they sprung a leak! if not open then i will aim to get at least a half hr walk in and i got aerobics mon and tues and keep active so my goals for this week are:

buy some vitamins and to commence taking them regularly.

partake in at least 4 classes this week, hopefully 5 work permitting

eat a healthy diet, less chocolate than recent days and no fast food

keep active in all i do, park further away from main entrance at work and take the stairs more! at home clean vac and iron to burn some extra cals!

hope everyone is doing well and that i have the strength to do well this week! xx

today was the day of my mini makeover, my treat to me for losing 21lbs this yr so far since august (wow that sounds like a lot added together i only think in 2lb a time!!)

i had a make up consultation with clinique in town, i have now invested in£66 worth of cosmetics and could have so easily spent so much more on cleansers, lotions etc!!
that can wait till next pay day otherwise stu is likely to kill me as we now have a joint account lol

i got foundation, blusher, concealer and a new lipstick….it was a lesson for me really, as growing up i have been an only child and my mom never wore make up so i was always pretty clueless about the correct tone and colour for me as i am so fair, so i have only ever had eyeliner lipstick and mascara but now with the delights of growiing up and developping dark circles under the eyes from my shifts at work i decided what better way to celebrate my success so far than a mini makeover! i look so much better i never realised good make up made such a difference! i am no swan but dont think of myself as the ugly duckling anymore

its strange but as i am changing from heavier to lighter and completely unfit to fitter i am having a greater interest in beautifying myself and taking more pride in my appearance. i am no expert in psychology but i think it is due to my increasing confidence in every aspect of life from work, going out and dare i say even the bedroom! i have always outwardly been a confident person but always from been around 8yrs old been strongly aware of my weight and that i was on the heavier side..at 18 i lost 32lbs just before i met stu and when we met i was brimming with confidence and felt fantastic, but slowly complacency and contentment set in plus eating and drinking out several times a week, i lived with my mom back then and swapped gym time for seeing stu time and almost without realising (i was in denial) i was back to square one constantly unhappy with my weight and fitness and no confidence in myself and the heaviest i have ever been, i decided to make a change when my cousin came over to visit from australia and some pics were taken one of which is my before pic…i could not believe how i’d let myself go!

stu has always been brilliant and never criticised or made any passing comments on my weight,, i think he just likes me whatever shape or size i am but now he is fantastic support and says how well i am doing and how proud of me he is… i am no longer ashamed and embarrassed at how i look after starting this journey i feel pretty damn good!!, of course i have bad days as does everyone but on the whole i feel fantastic and proud to be me, so far on this journey that 20lbs has made such an incredible difference to me i feel like the butterfly emerging from the chrysalis gradually and each week i feel better and better,

i’m not even half way there yet, l am close to been a 3rd of the way through in this personal challenge of getting myself into my healthy bmi range 53lbs to lose now but that sounds a hell of a lot better than 74lbs as it was in the beginning and around 10lbs i think to hit my mini goal but i will get there, i think this journey is perhaps the best thing i could have done, and buddyslim came along just when i needed it.. my happiness with life in general is just so much more, what a difference a few lbs makes! take it 2lbs at a time and it soon adds up!

hope everyone is well and having a great day..and i do apologize for my ramblings! i have cramp from typing now lol x

hi all just checking in for today, not much going on out of the ordinary, done a stack of ironing and cleaned the kitchen, then went to my aerobics class. boy do my legs ache its my own fault  i did body conditioning yesterday then aerobics today its far too many squats and lunges for my body to cope with lol spinning is booked for tomorrow so hoping a good nights rest does me good. its my week off work and gym time is my me time so trying to squeeze in something every day, i still cant believe how much i enjoy exercising its crazy but it helps me completely de stress, if the fella comes home from wk and he’s grumpy etc i clear off to the gym for an hr and by the time i’m back he has relaxed and is out of work mode so it works in both our favours!

another ache i have is in the top of each arm, today  i went to occupational health at work and had my flu shots i had seasonal flu in one arm and the swine flu vaccine in the other, quite a privallaged group at the moment in our hospitals trust as my mom works at a local drs surgery and they dont even have the swine flu vaccine for the staff or public yet..guess its the governments way of safeguarding the staff of the health service so that if the pandemic hits the staff can keep on working and not get sick! i had it to be on the safeside as i am generally fit and well, but if it hits bigtime  i will have to work closely with it at work over the winter i dont fancy my chances lol surprisingly only a sore arm tender and warm afterwards which i can still feel 12hrs later but no headaches nausea etc which can be common side affects. i dont know how they will work it in the usa but in england health professionals and the elderly/sick ie heart/lung disease/diabetics will be the first to be vaccinated but if required the government have ordered enough for the whole population to have the shot. so i guess they’re taking it seriously though i have only seen a few cases in my hospital so far.

i am also excited about tomorrow i am having a makeover in my local department store as a treat for losing the weight i have so far i can really start to tell the difference now. but i need a new concealer/ foundation so have booked a consultation at the clinique counter. i need something to start covering the dark circles under my eyes after working shifts i look terrible on nights  and the blemishes i get every month without fail lol.(though i have to say since increasing my water intake my skin is tonnes better and a lot clearer) . i have a typical fair english rose complexion so never needed concealer/foundation before now but as i am starting to get older i may have to invest!! this time next yr  i should look like a new woman…

hope everybodies having a great week..keep it up xxx

as i sit hear just after eating a mini chocolate bar and a mini bag of chocolate buttons i suddenly had the thought perhaps  i should cut it out completely from my diet? i then shook myself and realised i should not be so silly…moderation, moderation is the key! i enjoy my chocolate treats every little bite , and look foreward to them. i just have to be careful not to eat huge bars or bags of the stuff as  i used to! i  believe it helps keep me on track as i no longer binge on great amounts and i never feel as though i miss out..as long as i’m healthy 80-90% of the time theres no harm right? plus i am off to my body con class tonight so those bad boys will be worked off in no time! i realise i am much happier taking the slow and steady route and still enjoyiing what  i put in my mouth, i could never starve myself as i like my food far too much! lol

i wondered if any of you guys have banned different food types?

i no longer eat take out food ie… pizzas curries or burgers, or from fast food joints like kfc, mdonalds pizza hut etc…just maybe the odd chinese and i go for chow mein etc to be a little healthier and not feel as though i’m missing out. if its a social occasion and friends are going i will go for the healthiest option and look up the points/calories etc so that i am educated in what i will be  putting in to my body, before i have eaten (at one point i would have whatever took my fancy and worry about it later!). i wouldnt say i’ve banned them but just no longer have them, i find it strange over time how i no longer crave fast food whereas i did at one point..the more sugar and fat the bettter! i eat so much more veg now and enjoy it! and my energy levels are so much better too.

i just wondered how everybody copes with  those daily temptations of fast food and treats, whether you incorporate them into your diets or ban them altogether?

this is the first time in a weight loss journey i have still allowed myself to have a little of what i enjoy usually its all or nothing with me and  i truly believe this way i am currently working at will help me in the long run and keep me on track.. though i have to say if i had stronger will power i probably wouldn’t be eating chocolate, biscuits etc lol occasionly that will power does let me down, i’m not superhuman afterall, and it took long enough to put the weight on so i do not expect instant results, but at present the track i’m on is working pretty well for me!

hope you all having a lovely day , let me know what you think after all as long as we’re happy and healthy i dont think there is a right or wrong way! x