NuttyNat

well here i am, one year later from joining BS. It has been months since i signed on and i realise i had well and truly lost my way i am now in the same position as i was a year ago and no lighter or fitter only difference is i packed in smoking so at least something to be proud of I know i need the support from this site and i need to keep in touch with people who have the same issues as i do with food. I overeat, dont exercise regularly and yo yo diet these are 3 things i need to change. I want to be healthy, fit and slim in place of those. I am currently at work but afterwards i am going to the gym thismorning. i am going to track my daily diet again and try to reign in my overeating. A photograph has just sparked this in me, a photo from when i was 19 which is 4 years ago, i am in my fave dress looking and feeling fab i want to get there again , my weight gets me down daily and i want to stop that as  it is only myself that can change it, i no longer want to feel ashamed of my body and unattractive, i want to fit in my clothes comfortably i also lack energy and feel rubbish which i am certain is a byproduct of  not caring for my body. so here goes wish me luck

sorry guys for the pity post i promise a more up beat one will come your way next time and a time frame between this and my last post previously far too long since i checked in! hope all my buddies are doing well and i do apologise for disappearing on you! much love  nat x

here i am again blogging at 4am on the night shift, going well for eating tonight which i am kind of surprised at! usually i eat loads but i have been counting my points well and not gone over my allowance which i am proud of. my next weigh in is on thursday so i am just praying for a good loss. there is no reason why i shouldnt get one as i have not gone over my allowance all week and i have been working out too. i still feel as though i am in THE ZONE!lol as i have been so well behaved for the past two weeks, I am really noticing the change in how i feel in myself due to looking after my body, my skin is so much clearer as i am drinking 2-4litres of water daily, I just generally have more get up and go! My other half got me a model make over day for xmas where i get 3 hrs in a studio with my hair and make up done and a photo shoot so i really want to arrange that for summer and look my absolute best if i aim for august i would love to be 50 lighter which is about 7lbs a month which is fairly do able but i guess i should allow for slips so if i say 30-50 lighter then i would be over the moon with that. and at that weight i would benefit my health so much. i am now 1month without smoking, i rarley drink a lot so i really am starting to look after myself. 2010 is going to be the year for me i can feel it!

hope all is well for everybody x

evening all, how is everyone doing?

i am good today feeling especially motivated..dont know why its anybodies guess but i am so will not complain lol been up since 6am went swimming for 30 lengths then did my housework including ironing (that by rights shoulda put me in a bad mood!as it usually does)

met my mum and grandma for coffee for a few hrs and then came home. by the time i got home stu was too but conked out on the sofa so i watched some telly and had a cuppa. we had pork stew for dinner that i made in the slow cooker, it was very nice if i do say so myself and low in weight watcher points too! Just relaxed this evening and whilst stu on the comp i took myself off to the bedroom and did my aerobics dvd for 40 mins, just finished that so thought i’d update my blog and have a quick drink before bed. I up again at 6 tomorrow but i gotta go to wk tomorrow bet i dont wanna get up at 6 then!

so after a fairly active day I am now winding down for bed..full throttle ahead for another 3lbs off next wk i hope..well 2 at least! tomorrow i will take the stairs at work to try and be more active than usual. had my water and vitamins today so will keep up the good efforts and do the same tomorrow!night all xxx

weighed in today at my weight watchers meeting I have lost 3lb whoop whoop! now i shall keep up the good efforts..need to increase my exercise though as just done 4 workouts this week i want to be doing 5-6 times a week. . just struggling with time at the moment and finding the time to exercise. when stus off work i tend to do things with him instead of the gym so these past 3days hes been off i havent done any exercise apart from walking around the shops in town and walking pub to pub!lol so good result today just hoping i can continue and lose weight next week too fingers crossed, i shall just keep counting my points and doing my exercise classes/dvds. hope all going well for everyone xx

evening folks hope all is well with you, so another day down and here i am sat on my computer again whats more of a surprise is that i have actually visited buddyslim and am writing a blog!lol weight watchers is going well, i am now 5days in and have been within my pts on all days and i have been banking exercise pts 2 so i should have a loss..if i dont there is something wrong with the plan as i am doing everything in my power to stick to it and lose these stubborn lbs! well i say i am doing everything perhaps not completely true. breakfast was porridge, lunch was a pitta bread with low fat bacon and lettuce followed by a banana. then tea was a fish butty no butter from the chip shop GUILT GUILT GUILT!!!LOL though i have to say it was 11.5points and in my daily allowance so should i feel guilty or not?what do u reckon? i am programmed to feel guilty for eating junk food but it has been accounted for and i have saved 1.5points today and after this i am going to do an hr of boxercise aerobics combo so that should do some good. On a whole I am very proud of myself 3 weeks no smoking, and back to eating good and exercising just hope i can keep it up x

So here I am again back on buddyslim, not sure whats happened with me and why I haven’t visited regularly in so long (well since before christmas) just lost my will power i guess, so i am back now and shall persevere and update my blog regularly, and start with a clean slate! Well whats new with me? not much still working my bum off at the hospital, keeping my eyes open for something new though as it is really stressful at the minute and i aren’t enjoying it as much as i was.. i’ve quit smoking so am rather proud of that 3 weeks now and still doing well. Stu quit too so we have been in it together I think that helps a lot. I have also re joined weight watchers, previously I have just followed the plan from home without going to meetings or anything so with slipping off track i thought i’d do better with some accountability and that it may re motivate me. well its working, only on my first week but i am hoping for a good result my exercise regime has been good this week as has my water intake and i have been having my vitamins too and i have been following the diet spot on so fingers crossed for a good result! i just want to have a good loss this week to get me back on track.. My birthday is in april and I would like to lose 28lbs by then which is 7lb per month which is fairly do able i think so here I come…off to do my workout dvd now! hope all is well with everyone x

so a belated happy christmas and a happy new year to you all, i had lost all motivation, well basically thought i may as well relax over christmas and enjoy myself so that is eexactly what i did.. so as a result i did put on some weight back up to 189/190lbs, did i mention exercise has again become a concept that has lost me. All through this time of ignorance towards my diet i have been thinking new year back on track again which i guess many do.. so here we go from now i shall carry on my journey and i have had a booster to begin. I am now back at my lowest of 187 due to a good bout of sickness and diarrhoea which started on the 28th so i am now back on track fingers crossed! not the ideal way to drop a few lbs, i will admit it is not the best way but perhaps it has given me that extra nudge in the right direction heres hoping anyhow! wishing you all health and happiness for 2010 x

well firstly i must apologise to all my buddies for been of very little support recently, sorry guys, but then i have been letting myself down as well. my gym visits had fallen to one a week, sweets and chocolate had crept into my daily diet and junk food was making regular appearances aswell, so due to this i gained2-3lbs luckily i am back to 188 and my lowest so far on this journey had been 187, so i am almost back to getting where i want to be. i have just become lazy there is no other way to put it! but the good news is i have been to body con tonight and eaten well today, i feel that perhaps i am getting myself on track again, i really do hope so as i had been doing great until these past coupla weeks, and then my motivation vanished and i missed a few classes. 3lbs heavier later there i was, but i urged myself to get back on the dreadded scales this morning and without trying so much 2lbs have come off!!..my clothes still fit the same so i am seeing this as one of my second chances so to speak, i can still get my mojo back and continue doing as well as i have previously, i should not give up on my journey to do so i would be letting all you guys down after all the support given, and i would be failing myself. i am not where i want to be and i’ll be damned if i am going to stop now after all my efforts!!! so spinning is booked for fri eve and sat am and then body con is booked for mon and aerobics for tues, Nutty Nat is back whoop whoop!!lol i know i will feel so down on myself if i fail at this journey and i feel so much better in myself right now than i did, i also know that i have not reached my full potential yet and i can feel even better in myself than i do already so heres to the future! xxx

hi buddies hope all is going well with you all, i am slowly getting back on track tonight i went to my body con class and its the first class i’ve truly enjoyed since i slipped off track, though my abs are killing now lol my diet has been good for the past few days too and i think my motivation is now back in full form! i am so happy as i was worrying it had desserted me! i am hoping to get these 2 pesky lbs off that i managed to put on this week. i have spinning booked on weds am but weds eve is my works xmas party so i am going to try my best to choose the healthy options from the menu and drink vodka with low cal mixers instead of my usual wine and see how i get on! i am still wishing for those 5lbs off by xmas and really hope i can do it but if i am i know i gotta stay focused so wish me luck!

my xmas present from my mum this year is money for clothes as with losing 2stones i am in need of some new clothes as some are too big and my wardrobe just looks tired, i want some clothes to reflect how i am feeling about myself now, i wont spend a fortune as i dont plan to stay in them for too long as hopefully i can be a dress size smaller by march, but i want to look good in the meantime and see the person i want to see in the mirror instead of a frump!!!

so 2days in on my back to it plan and i am doing okay. today has been good for food and exercise i did a one hour spin class and have eaten well just gotta drink a little more water but i will have done good with that too by the time my day is over. yesterday was ok on a whole i did a 1hr spin class then too and my dinner was good at home but had chicken and cashew with noodles from the chinese at work but i didnt eat it all! no chocolate or crisps these past few days so it is an improvement to these past week or 2! i am swimming sunday and monday i got body con and weds i got spinning again. i am surprised how easy it is to get out of the swing of things.. these past two spin classes have been murder lol it just goes to show if you miss a few it really does make a difference. i am so glad to be back on track though i was feeling really fed up with myself earlier this week and am feeling better already so 5lbs off for xmas here i come!